What a busy month, busy with the event which had been prepared since June.

It's my first event.

Although I'm not the event host for the whole event, I have been given a chance to learn for it.

A chance for me to work as an event sponsor for my company.

It is a big challenge for me as I do not have any experience in it and for the company is their first time to be an event sponsor for such a big event.

The event starts at 5pm but my team and I had to reach the event venue before 4pm to get the setup all done before the event starts.

Been standing at the venue spot for more than 5 hours.

It's an exhausted and tired day. 

Although in the middle of the event had happened something that was unhappy. I'm still glad that the event still goes smooth.

A big thanks to the team who come over to help out during the event and pre-activation.

Thanks for spending your weekend with me to get the event done.


It's a plenitude month for me as it is full of challenges and fun.
I enjoy what I'm doing right now although currently, my job tasks are still not the ideal job that I'm actually looking for.
But I had a lot to learn, and still a lot to do with it.




xoxo

Been together with him for 499 days.

We started our long-distance relationship in 2018.

499 days; 11976 hours; 718560 minutes.

from Kota Kemuning to Skudai, JB - 324.4 km

Tomorrow is our 500 days. I've been waited for so long till you come and visit me in KL.

It's been 2 months we did get to see each other face to face, hugs, and kisses.

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Do we have LDR struggles? 

Hmm.. for me, I think yes, we do have the struggle.

We can't spend time together like other couple does. Spending time hanging out during weekends, movies, shopping even some special day such as Valentine's Day.

We might not be able to spend time together.

The only way to see you is from phones and video calls.

We might only get to see each other every 2 to 3 months. Or even longer if there is not any holidays or special day in between.

Every time leaving him going back to my original place, I feel so empty as just a few days ago, we can stick together 24 hours and all of a sudden he had to left. 

I knew this path that we both chose is not going to be easy and until the time we get to be with each other permanently, there will still be many goodbyes. (I cried a lot when I'm gonna leave him)

We have to go through the pain of being separated again each time our visit ends. 

Every time goodbyes, I have to take a few days even weeks to recover from this kind of worst feeling to the “normal” me.

We will have arguments even fights when we not able to meet each other.

Sometimes, I will fear of missing out, fear of not being able to be there for him, fear of the uncertainties in the future.

I'm very willing to give space to him when he wants his “me time”.

I might be annoying, keep texting him, call him to know what he is doing.

I wasn't confident about myself and feeling insecurities.

I always told myself not to keep on bothering him on what he is doing, where is he right now.

Just last Sunday, we go into a fight on I'm controlling him not to do this and that.

During the fights, I was crying and he didn't even want to comfort me. End up we end the call with unhappily.

I texted him on what I feel and what I really want to tell him actually.

Maybe he might not be able to understand me well. But he still manages to listen what I'm saying.

I believe both of us and fight those uncertainties and arguments
I hope that when we are old, we can both laugh at each other about the past and currently together.



love you to the moon and back
xoxo

August is around the corner.

I've been stepping out from University for one year. Time flies.

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Yesterday have a small catch up with my friends.

Spending time gossip and chit-chatting at a cafe.

Talking about our past, our current and future.

Sometimes I feel really confused about my current.

Is this what I want for? Am I on the right path that brings me to the life I want?

Am I doing the right decision to jump out from the comfort zone to a new challenging environment?

Yes, currently what I am doing and work for is more related to what I've learned during my university time. However, sometimes I still feel a bit inanition.

I've been working with a new company for almost two months.

Can't said that the job scope isn't interesting. Somehow, I still can't find the enthusiasm in it.

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Uncommon Beauty - one of my baby which I been seeing from zero until today.

Partnering with my friends doing online selling.

Been doing this for almost one year. 

Sometimes, I feel tired of doing everything by myself.

I told a lot of people around me on the current situation which I'm facing right now.

Everyone asked me to stop and withdraw my share of doing this, but I feel it's a pity to withdraw it right now. Because it's still making a profit although it is slow.

I feel so exhausted by doing all this my own.

I need a vacation holiday.

The year 2019 has been gone through the half, and I still yet done nothing.

It's crazy how time can pass so quickly. I can't believe its already July.

Time flies. I can feel grew older day by day.

So many things happen in the first half of 2019.

Let's flashback what happens in the previous month.

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It starts off with celebrating my baby's birthday on 17th Jan. Plan to give a big surprise to him but end up a little failed. But I'm still glad that he likes what I'm ready for him. I hope that every year I am the one who celebrates birthday together. Let grow older together!

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