A new month, a brand new me.. Finally get fully vaccinated - 14 days after finish my second dose. Able to go out and visit saloon to have a haircut. Wanted to cut my hair short for long.. My last haircut to short might have already been 2 years ago. Some of my friend said this haircut suits me a lot and makes me feel younger. 😂

Back to my single life for almost 4 months, sometimes I have that kind of feeling of kind of sad and regret of letting go an almost 4 years relationship. I thought when I talked about the story of me and him I wouldn't cry any more, but yeah.. my tears still burst out of my control. I not sure whether I'm still into it and have not got out from that relationship or I feel pity on the older me as I did put in so much of effort and doing the best that I could to him. Although we still keep in touch, I know that he might also feel the same way or he still waiting me to go back to him, I just feel kind of tiring and I know both of us need to move on.

Did talk to my friends about this, one of them ask me to hold him on hand and reconsider as if I couldn't find someone better, I could go back to him. But somehow I feel bad to do this because it is wasting his time to let him keep on waiting for me and it might be we couldn't back to each other someday. In this few months, I know I have changed a lot. From my thinking till the way that I treat someone... Ever since I broke up, I know even though I'm the one who telling him we might can reconsider to go back relationship in future, however, I also know that it is hard for me. 

I could just say that, the current me feel more comfortable to be alone. Sometimes will feel loneliness but I could just do whatever I want and I do not need to inform or tell anyone what I'm currently doing. All decision and steps I could just make it all by myself. I feel happy right now, and enjoy what I'm doing now.

So yea.. that all for this update. See ya. XOXO